Today start off quite ok thought of going to swim but too late already as I am going to meet up with my sistas, GINA and WAN TING.
We met up at Bugis at 2.30 pm supposedly, but I am late. OK you guys will start saying 'as usual' but I am trying hard to change my this habit. SOrry. Shopping and eating is always a must for our outing. Wan ting managed to buy a BAG which she kept on consider before she actually bought it, because she still need to budget for her plan. As for GIna she managed to get a pair of new shoes. ME ! nothing, but I am going to buy one a NIKE bag this week, as I still got voucher from my birthday also given by gina and wan ting. :)
The most exciting part of our outing is PHOTO TAKING. Really had lots of fun taking qurky photo of ourselves, thanks to Gina's camera. Not just that, we also took NeoPrints, its has been a long time since we did that, having lots of fun posing and designing our pictures.
Overall, WE ARE HAPPY TO THE MAX!!! YEAH!!! here I like to wish Ting and Kai HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY this week on wednesday. Happy to see that ting manage to find a great guy who loves her and she loves him very much, they have been through so many obstacle, and finally coming to their 3rd year in this journey. May both of you be as lovy as ever.
Will update the photos of us tomorrow. Good nites!!
Cheers,
-Ash- Saturday, September 13, 2008 // 1:18:00 AM The Black Friday.
Thing should be going smooth today, which I hope but no. Things did not go the way I wanted. Mistakes at work, and the feeling of sadness keeps overwhelm me.
Today after my work I met up with Joyce thought of watching movie today, but in the end because there is not time slot which we feel comfortable with, so we just go and have dinner. REally admire Joyce ability and envy too, to be able to be successful and regconise at her work. Being through so many problems and obstacle, she still comes out strong.
Looking back at me, I really find that I am useless in ways or my lack of ability to strive for better life for myself and family. Feeling frustrated and sad, but I always keep telling myself that I need to be strong and move on, but it is always easy said then done.
I really hate my life now, but I do not want to lose like this. It is really hard to live on, I want to live more of my life. Think I taking things too hard or maybe not, I maybe taking it too lightly.
I must work harder, keep looking forward to a better tomorrow and make it right.
Cheers,
-Ash- Wednesday, September 10, 2008 // 10:46:00 PM Tired day ...
Feel so tired today, guess today will be a short update. Work is as usual but with some fulfilment, I actually am involve in the discussion with my supervisor, finance manager and operation vice president. Really feel like a family though as they do not treat me like a new comer instead they do listen to me and what I had to contribute. Thats for work.
ok think I will have to continue again tomorrow. My eyes are shutting down. Hope to see my fren tag me at my tag box. Its always a encouraging thing and heart warming to see encouragement from you guys. Thanks a million.
Cheers.
-Ash- Tuesday, September 09, 2008 // 12:14:00 AM Tuesday ... Another day ...
Ok tuesday is coming to an end, so what's next for wednesday? ... actually it will not be much for me, just a normal day to work and then knock off at 6 pm, going to have a run after work then ANIME at 11 pm ... YEAH!!!
Yes for my tuesday, hmm where should I start? from the journey to work? lol ... na will be too bored but I am not so happy with not able to get my hand on one of the TODAY newspaper, because all have been given out when I reached today. So I guess I am late today ... no worries I am not late for work always reach before 8.30 am. :)
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WOrk is still as usual but Office Politics is still fresh everyday lol ... but I do not really remember much of it also cause I have poor memory so I am selective on what I like to remember lol low disk space too bad cant upgrade it. Lunch is the best part of my working day, able to have it with my frens from my department and enjoy discussing on current affairs to holidays venue ... omg really love to go to Bintan or go on a Cruise ... lol ... so anyone interested think we can planned it out from now.
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Oh ya, have been reading a book ' 10 Steps to Healthy Easting'. Its a book I really like to reccomend you, my friend to read it. The book explained the need for healthy eating then helps you to plan it out, to make the step out to eat healthy. Also inside they included recepies and ways to keep ourselves healthy by exercise. Its a very comprehensive book for beginners like me, who knows nothing about healthy eating. SO MAKE THE FIRST STEP !!! by the way, I borrow this book from the library, so you do not have to actually buy it .... JUST BORROW IT.
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Yes more photos which I promise lol .... lets make it part one for tonite, for more you can always find it in my friendster unless I have reached its limit hahahaha.....
Do hope you guys find these pics nice. I may not be able to capture as it is supppose to, so why not when you walk in an open area just have yr head tilt up, you might find something interesting or fascinating.... keep your head up look up into the sky .. feel the wind and feel the freedom ...
ok time to sleep, my dark circles are getting darker and eye bags getting bigger lol ... so rest well my frens and also look forward to a new day tomorrow things will be better ...
Cheers!
-Ash-
Monday, September 08, 2008 // 10:53:00 PM Monday Blues ..Feeling sort of normal today, but feel happy to bring my mom to the mrt station on my bicycle. Really like to see her safe and happy, also my dad who is going to retire in another 10 years time. They motivated me to work harder and really want to be a better person, to be able to provide them with a comfortable life. Think that is what everyone wanted to give their parent.
Talk about work, the pace is getting slower but still challenging, I have lots to learn in this line. Oh ya ... I got my letter to go for the employment check-ups, YEAH!!! thts means I going to be confirmed. My first permanent job, really excited about it. lol ... oh ya here are some gifts from my colleague:
From Shermaine, bought it in Thailand...
From Zeny (Product manager), who gave me when she came back from her hometown, Phillipines..
Yesh, these are the 2 gifts I got so far in my company, lol .... one is at my desk the other half in my stomach for safe keeping. hahaha ...
Ya also I got my Staff ID so happy, have the sense of belonging, thought it is jus the same as the camp pass I use to have but the feeling is totally different ... DIFFERENT ... lol .. let you guys take a look --->
Ugly right? lol ... anyway guess I will jus end it here today ...
All the best to my dearest .... Cheers!
-Ash-
Hi my fren thnx for the wait and the concern. Have been busy and lazy lol, because of my work has been quite taxing for me as its the start of it. Going to the reach my 3rd month of my work ... YEAH!!! that means I going to get my confirmation, Hopefully ... :)
Have been depress and also been happy. Think that is life. Depress bout my life bout myself, maybe more of a regret again and the feeling of hate towards myself. I really think that it is wasting my time to be bothered by these problems. Tried to pull myself together, but yet lack of the discipline and determination.
I have barely made it through work and must really thanks to the support of my colleague especially Cynthia Frank's (NS Buddy) girlfriend, Chantel, Shalyn (Supervisor). Never forget my buddies ... from Sec sch ---> ITE ---> McD ---> NS, really had fun meeting up with all of them, knowing with each meeting we are doing well and encouraging each others to be better.
Have thought of a few changes I wanted to make to my life which I should have done it 3 months ago:
- To exercise
- To make time for Family and Frens
- To save more spend less
- To be more organised and systematic
and Ya da ya da ya da ...
lol ... see thts a vague kind of planning I did and till now it is still this way. :) Really hope to have someone to actually push me, remind me, drill me. BUt it still come back to my philosphy (sorry if I spell it wrong, trying to have good english for my blog) : NEVER RELY ON OTHERS, BUT TO COUNT ON YOURSELF. I know I do have my sistas and buddies to help me, but I just cannot always rely on them for my own problems and mistakes. They deserves better like my family.
Ok will have to continue tomorrow, with Pictures !!! yeah !!! took quite a few but more on the SKies ... So free and calm ....
So Good nites my family and frens. :)
Cheers,
-Ash-