Its another day at work, busy day and a challenging one because its month end and we got to get all the orders to be bill ... so I actually worked OT today though its only my 3rd week at work lol ... really wan to do my best in my job and be responsible also not to be a burden to my team of fabulous and experience ladies lol ... If you did not know, currently my department I am the only guy hahaha ... but ths only up till today tomorrow there will be a new guy coming in to join our family ...
I must thanks my supervisor for giving me the chance to really exhibit what I am capable of and try things which needed me myself to challenge my limits. Ya before I forgot I wan to congrates to Efah lol getting married soon hope that you will have a happy marriage and give birth to lots of cuties :) ...
Sometimes I really want to work myself out till I do not feel emptiness and fill myself with fulfillment, as I got too many regrets. People don't believe that there are others who really hate guys like me, ya sometimes I also hate myself, not being sincere and undecisive in decision or even childish to not think before I act, most importantly I guess they also hate me for other things which I think they know themselves well ... everyone has their dark secret so do I, to hide a secret really takes lots of courage and endurance also to be able to overcome their fear.
Saw some of my friends (maybe they will feel disgusted by that way I address them as) profile and blogs, it does makes me sad and also makes me want to live strong. Sad, as in a way I really feel hurt in a way where I really do things which makes people wants to remind themselves to beware of people like me, I am not a role model but a warning to others. They never say my name because people nowadays do not criticse each other in their face. I rather they do that then to let me admit it myself but no choice its me then its me. Whats done cant be rewind and I will not make the same mistake twice ( which they will say good for you then) ... lol ... Life is so unpredictable really ...
Strong, is actually to show them that I can achieve something too though with the mistakes or flaws I had. Really want to become SOMEBODY but yet I am too weak and coward to do so at the start, but not NOw ... There are people who hates me but there are Buddies and Sistas who really care for me and supporting me all the way, of course I won forget my family who are my silence heros, giving me the love and cares in an invisible way, it will be too mushy for them to show it too thats how old fashion thinking of me and my family.
WAN TING, GINA, EDWARD, TAT BOON, MIAO JUN, FELIX, JOYCE, JIE YI, JACK, FRANK, WILSON, CHONG MING, LENNON, KIEN SENG, SONG JUN, YEW KWANG, GINA (MAC), JASMINE, ALVIN, DICKSON, JIA RONG, SIDNEY, DE MING AND ON And oN aND on ... to think I am still able to list out this lenght of list of friends I had and still counting, I can consider myself FORTUNATE AND HONOURED to have them be with me through stages of my life. THANKZ A MILLION ...
A BIG HUG to my sister VANESSA, my MOM, my DAD and my UNCLE ... really thanks them alot alot alot alot and infinity, I cant repay them what they have done for me in this life time ...
ya back to yesterday, I really scare to see Wan Ting to be angry with me ... lol ... thanks to my hand so slow in typing and thanks to my brain think too fast ... She have been through too much these few days or I should say for the past year. Have been busy with her studies and work and also relationship, what makes me feel heart pain is she keeps saying she is not a good enough friend for us. I really think she hav done alot and is giving herself too much pressure ... GAL U R AT YR BEST LE !!!! you are great now handling yr work studies relationship and friendship jus nice don feel that you are alone ....
then Gina leh ... lol our YOU YU SHU NU .... lol kidding but a gal who really need love and lots of TLC (tender loving care) also been very sad and have trouble in her work and trying to get a GUY omg guys out there please show some action .... lol .... GAL U R ALSO THE BEST !!! though she is busy, but will always try to go with TIngs and my time to have meet ups and chit chat session ... thanks alot for your effort and also TAKE CARE OF EDWARD.
ok this blog is getting no end, last but not least .... a friend of mine who have been also supporting me and giving lots of lobang, JOYCE. THink I cant find someone who is more strong than her le, like I always tell her " The only person who can defeat you is only Yourself", this is not just an encouraging quote but its a real life kind of description of Joyce. Through the hard times she went through, makes her stronger and stronger at each stages of her life. Joyce you are not alone must remember that too ... cos you got a cute friend like ME and also a handsome friend like JACK and a pretty friend like JIe YI ....lol ...
ok guys thats marks the end of my blog today... To Be Continue ~
Cheers~
~Ash~ Sunday, June 29, 2008 // 11:17:00 PM
Thts bout it for my update of myself ... lol ... hopefully this week will be my best one ...I need to wake up soon and learn to see myself and know what I really want and who I really am. Just have the feeling that I am jus acting and not being myself people think I mght be good but thats only my COVER but inside of me is highly infected I really think that I am not a good person at all ....
No matter what I will still be positive and not wanting to waste my life after surviving for 21 years... I will be strong and I will be successful ... no matter what ... will have to try to keep in touch with my fren and communicate more with my family ... and finally to really improve myself ... JIA YOU JIA YOU ...
Cheers
Ash
Monday, June 16, 2008 // 10:47:00 PM First Day of WORK !!! & updates on other days ...Today is my first day @ work in ECS Computers (Aisa) Pte Ltd, as Sales Support Executive. Currently under studying with my colleauge Shiao Hoon, she is in the company for bout a year or 2 and very efficient in completing her work. Soon i will be posted to other team to SUPPORT them lol ... thats my job !!!
did not really remember what are the name sof the drinks and cakes BUT I can say they taste GREAT ... also while chilling out at NYDC we actually talked about how wan ting's and gina's wedding will be like, thinking of what kind of wedding dress and the ceremony ALSO some other weird kind of setting for the wedding, changing the way of entering the hall, instead of the couple walking in together throught the middle of the hall, each take a side and walk along the sides and then merge again at the end .... lol ....
also Ting say that her darling only want to have 2 tables for their weddings, we are like very shocked and amuse lol ... imagine the whole hall with only 2 tables ... HAHAHAHAHA ... omg really damn funny. Gina and I already promise Tings that we will be her MC on her wedding day lol ...
OK now you may think why I haven been talking bout Edward because I don't wan to remember about it omg can u imagine? BOTH OF US WORE THE SAME COLOUR SAME BRAND SHIRT ... GREEN !!!!! so GAY !!! lol ... REally scare people will think that we are a couple ... Overall the whole night is fun, finally we could hav time like this to enjoy ....
ThUrsDay, 12 june 2008
went for my interview at ECS which is the job I am doing now ... Thankz to CYNTHIA and FRANK this couple really helped me alot, cythia was the girl who intro me into this company. I was interviewed by Kwang Ying, HR executive, my Head of Dept Mr Terence Kang (ps: which today then i found out his name) omg he better don't bump into my blog and last but not least my Supervisor Shalyn Chia, who is on leave today so haven really know exactly what I will be doing ...
Ya the interview went quite smoothly, I was nervous because its my first formal interview and was interviewed by 3 person quite stress but fortunately and gratefuly I was granted this job on that late evening before they knock off ... SO happy finally i got a job le ....
sAtuRdAy, 14 june 2008
no specific plan for that day but Frank rang me up to meet because Cynthia is having a stall in the Youth Park which was a flea market organised by LIME.She sells female accessories, so Frank does not want to be at the store lol ... then finally I came to his rescue from boredom we went to walk around in Orchard then we saw Nicholas from our bn who is doing a event on facial products so went in to get some freebies lol ...
The day has not ended here, because I am went to woodland to visit my parent's fren or should I say my beloved Aunty Linda, Uncle Brendon, Marc and Andrea who jus came back to settle down in Singapore from Melborne. but before I carry on to their house, I go over to Courts to see how Dickson is doing well as a promoter very happy to see that he have a job and ok la I should say doing quite well. Also he does look smart over there ... lol .... oh so to my beloved family house we had dinner and went to hav some drink at their house until late lol .... really long time never catch up with them and really miss them a lot ...
SunDAY, 15 june 2008
Its FATHER'S DAY ... ya my sister and I bought a POLO T for my father and wanted him to wear it to the dinner lol .... ya he did ... before the dinner that day i went to work @ MAGAZING in Plaza Singapura, tiring that day because the day before I did not have enough sleep, managed to go through the working hour ...And really enjoyed the dinner lol ... PAPA I LOVE YOU !!! lol ... MUMMY I LOVE YOU TOO !!! ... :)
Phew ~ DONE !!! finally updated all the entries lol ... finally some more pics of me and Gina ...
ok cheers to all !!! and JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU ... God working day tomorrow ...
Friday, June 13, 2008 // 1:44:00 AM A Boring Tues !!!
ok the end lol ... see how bored I am ... still on the journey of life ... walking on and on ... Thursday, June 12, 2008 // 9:22:00 PM cont' Demsey Gathering
~*nice interior design*~
~*look at the fish ... yummy*~
~my first Ben and Jerry ice cream~
Last by not least, SOme Pics Of uS !!! lol ...