Monday, June 30, 2008 // 11:10:00 PM Reflections....

Its another day at work, busy day and a challenging one because its month end and we got to get all the orders to be bill ... so I actually worked OT today though its only my 3rd week at work lol ... really wan to do my best in my job and be responsible also not to be a burden to my team of fabulous and experience ladies lol ... If you did not know, currently my department I am the only guy hahaha ... but ths only up till today tomorrow there will be a new guy coming in to join our family ...

I must thanks my supervisor for giving me the chance to really exhibit what I am capable of and try things which needed me myself to challenge my limits. Ya before I forgot I wan to congrates to Efah lol getting married soon hope that you will have a happy marriage and give birth to lots of cuties :) ...

Sometimes I really want to work myself out till I do not feel emptiness and fill myself with fulfillment, as I got too many regrets. People don't believe that there are others who really hate guys like me, ya sometimes I also hate myself, not being sincere and undecisive in decision or even childish to not think before I act, most importantly I guess they also hate me for other things which I think they know themselves well ... everyone has their dark secret so do I, to hide a secret really takes lots of courage and endurance also to be able to overcome their fear.

Saw some of my friends (maybe they will feel disgusted by that way I address them as) profile and blogs, it does makes me sad and also makes me want to live strong. Sad, as in a way I really feel hurt in a way where I really do things which makes people wants to remind themselves to beware of people like me, I am not a role model but a warning to others. They never say my name because people nowadays do not criticse each other in their face. I rather they do that then to let me admit it myself but no choice its me then its me. Whats done cant be rewind and I will not make the same mistake twice ( which they will say good for you then) ... lol ... Life is so unpredictable really ...

Strong, is actually to show them that I can achieve something too though with the mistakes or flaws I had. Really want to become SOMEBODY but yet I am too weak and coward to do so at the start, but not NOw ... There are people who hates me but there are Buddies and Sistas who really care for me and supporting me all the way, of course I won forget my family who are my silence heros, giving me the love and cares in an invisible way, it will be too mushy for them to show it too thats how old fashion thinking of me and my family.

WAN TING, GINA, EDWARD, TAT BOON, MIAO JUN, FELIX, JOYCE, JIE YI, JACK, FRANK, WILSON, CHONG MING, LENNON, KIEN SENG, SONG JUN, YEW KWANG, GINA (MAC), JASMINE, ALVIN, DICKSON, JIA RONG, SIDNEY, DE MING AND ON And oN aND on ... to think I am still able to list out this lenght of list of friends I had and still counting, I can consider myself FORTUNATE AND HONOURED to have them be with me through stages of my life. THANKZ A MILLION ...

A BIG HUG to my sister VANESSA, my MOM, my DAD and my UNCLE ... really thanks them alot alot alot alot and infinity, I cant repay them what they have done for me in this life time ...

ya back to yesterday, I really scare to see Wan Ting to be angry with me ... lol ... thanks to my hand so slow in typing and thanks to my brain think too fast ... She have been through too much these few days or I should say for the past year. Have been busy with her studies and work and also relationship, what makes me feel heart pain is she keeps saying she is not a good enough friend for us. I really think she hav done alot and is giving herself too much pressure ... GAL U R AT YR BEST LE !!!! you are great now handling yr work studies relationship and friendship jus nice don feel that you are alone ....

then Gina leh ... lol our YOU YU SHU NU .... lol kidding but a gal who really need love and lots of TLC (tender loving care) also been very sad and have trouble in her work and trying to get a GUY omg guys out there please show some action .... lol .... GAL U R ALSO THE BEST !!! though she is busy, but will always try to go with TIngs and my time to have meet ups and chit chat session ... thanks alot for your effort and also TAKE CARE OF EDWARD.

ok this blog is getting no end, last but not least .... a friend of mine who have been also supporting me and giving lots of lobang, JOYCE. THink I cant find someone who is more strong than her le, like I always tell her " The only person who can defeat you is only Yourself", this is not just an encouraging quote but its a real life kind of description of Joyce. Through the hard times she went through, makes her stronger and stronger at each stages of her life. Joyce you are not alone must remember that too ... cos you got a cute friend like ME and also a handsome friend like JACK and a pretty friend like JIe YI ....lol ...

ok guys thats marks the end of my blog today... To Be Continue ~

Cheers~
~Ash~

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about me A boy name Ashley, born in the year 1986 on 30 Dec. No talent, No skill, Knows nothing. Dreamy yet ambitious, ok you know what he will get. Currently studying part time in Kaplan and working as Sales SUPPORT. so I am not a sales person just a SUPPORT to them. Last but not least, I am dancing at Dancepointe, with a good instructor JACKY and a bunch of cool peeps. Rock On!

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