A.Sinful.Him

A comeback.

2009-03-17T01:30:00.002+08:00

Ok its been a month or more since my last update. Finally change my layout and blog skin. Having some trouble sizing the music player. Will do more improvement to it. lol. Frens I really miss you guys. Really donno how can I get through my sec sch life, my ITE life, my McDonalds life and my Army life without frens support and encourgement.

I am getting very lazy and lack of motivation. Take my studies for instance. I thought I can actually handle it like days in ITE. But it is so different without my frens, to be honest I haven make any fren in my class till now. Everyone just come and goes. Really miss the time Wan ting and Gina, we study for our exam at yishun McDonalds lol.

Now the only thing I looking forward to in a week is my dance lesson. Really had fun and love it. But I might need to stop for one term, due to my funding is not enough.

Job wise not very optismistic. My company have just gone through the first round of retrenchment, and planning to cut pay soon. Think the worst is yet to come. Along with my self management problems, its a disaster, losing the motivation when I first started in the company. Trying to find tht motivation back and get on with my work.

ok. will stop for the time being here. Nites. MUST JIA YOU!

-Cheers-
Ash

Sick

2009-02-17T00:11:00.002+08:00

Finally updating something. but in not a so good condition. The weather is damn bad. Humid omg its a killer. I now down with FLU! ya with my nose keep running, which I also should do. lol. my tummy is getting sexier like a pregnant lady's.

Many things happened within this half a month. Its normal as we ppl have to move on with life no matter what happens and we are born to be able to move on. OK, back to my not so happy event first.

1) A freaking impolite and disgusting freak, whom I once called fren came to my house for visit during the second day of Chinese NEw Year. Every year he will not fail to boost about how well he did and never fails to remind me tht I am earning less than him also without fail to be rude towards my family members. Overall he NEVER FAILs to make me unhappy during Chinese New Year.

In the first place, I should not invite him to my house to celebrate chinese new year out of pity. Seeing him with no one wants to contact him and with his family kind of reject him ( which I now understand why), wanted him to at least feel the festive season.

To repay me in this happy and joyous occassion, he actually CHEATS in a card game with me my family and frens of our family. Thts unforgivable, adding on to it toking to my mom in a manner which I totally feel so angry as if she's a fren. ok fren is fren but she is my mom and I don think when we go to other ppl's house, we tok to our fren's mom in such manner. He just donno what he is RESPECT. Oh almost forgot his name is CHUA SEN YAN. Guards Medic, ya very cool. -.-"

ok too worked up not good for my body now lol. Its late shall return tomorrow to cont with my unhappy events. lol. :)

Nites my fren and may the god you believe in bless you.

Cheers!
-Ash-

Lazy.

2009-01-20T13:33:00.002+08:00

Its after lunch. lol. want to make up for my past 2 to 3 days entries. Better pray hard my boss do not see me doing this lol. This month is real slow for business, and the first round of retrench will start after Chinese New Year. *PRAYING* please at least let me have some time to look for new job. But have to resign to fate for this, once decided I doubt the management will be soft hearted. Business is Business. I have to abide by the rule of Accountants lol.

Ok after the not so delightful news, I shall go back to the weekends. Its not very fun, definitely not what I have expected. Overall still ok.

Saturday was usual for me, waking up late as no more job for me in the morning, then go for my dance lesson. Hip hop lesson on Sat we learnt Bounce ( i suppose its the song lol). Its was real cool, before the lesson I actually went to watch Step Up 2, the last part of the movie where they dance in the rain, and the steps are cool. But what we learnt is more like the steps of the Hip Hop Champion from Philipines, the steps are just simple but keeping up with the tempo really need lots of concentration for me, plus I am prone to get tangled up lol. One word can describe how I feel after the lesson: 'Shag' .

My Saturday did not end here, I went to PLAY! with Jeremy and his gang. had fun dancing and not really drinking cos its like not cheap you know so I jus stick to my complimentary one. Its Kelvin's birthday (its also the first time I saw him), ya cakes again, I am sure to gain back inches that I lose in my dance lesson. The gang was funny and real playful. Its really a pleasure to have met them.

Sunday hmm quite a lazy one too. Had actually told my boss I cant make it to work on Sunday as I have expected that I will be reaching home late. So I slept till noon and help my mom out with cleaning of the altar.

Monday, hmm nothing much, work still the same. Met Miao Jun for dinner at The Soup Spoon @ Parco Bugis. The soup and Sandwich is really good. I can get my free Grande soup and a can drink on the next visit. Thanks to Miao Jun too for her contribution to my chop collection.

As for Tuesday, today till now I only feel sleepy. I did not have a heavy Lunch but yet still feel sleepy its like a timer set in my body to feel that way. No good. lol. OK! shall stop here first. Tonite then cont.

Cheers!
-Ash-

The usual.

2009-01-15T21:59:00.002+08:00

Opps I have not update for 2 days. lol. Really nothing special to write about, just daily life, wake up, bath, go to work, lunch, go home, dinner, surf net, lastly sleep. So I will just spare the details. But today ya quite happy cos my lesson was postphone to other days where the school have arranged for us for a make up.

Today our CAT paper 4 was conducted in Concord Hotel ( old Le Meridian), one of the function room. At the start, this whole idea is a mistake. Like what my lecturer Mrs Ang fear, things really did not turn out as smoothly as it suppose to be. First there is not enough seats for the whole class. Secondly, the table is small and its squeezy, its not like we are here to listen to talks which does not need to have that much space. But we do need lots of space for our lecture notes and for us to do the workings. Third, the visualiser sux really hard to see what Mrs Ang is writing, plus with my spec that need to be replace due to the change of my degree of short sightedness, I having headache. Lastly, due to all the problems we could not carry on with the lesson.

Mrs Ang tried calling back to kaplan to see if they can re-schedule another time for us to do a make up for this lesson, as most of the student including me and Mrs Ang thinks that it is useless to continue when we cannot concentrate due to all the disruption. So finally she managed to talk it through with the admin and release us early.

So now I am here updating my blog. Come to think of it i have been eating lots of chocolate these few days, really alot. Today I have finally finished the 3 quarter slab of chocolate that Shalyn gave, 70% dark choco. REALLY NICE! MADE IN SWITZERLAND. Nice nice nice. lol and I still got 3 more milk chocolate on my desk waiting for me lol. small one lol.

Really feel very tired but cant seem to be able to rest well. Still not bucking up and still lazy, omg I so hate myself, it is always easy to say than done but I will not give up and I cant give up I have to make it through.

Hao ba I shall stop my entry here. Look forward to Saturday for Dance lesson YEAH!

Cheers!
-ASh-

Monday Blues

2009-01-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

Monday is always so demoralising. Have to drag myself to work but its still ok as it is not tht busy yet. Just reach office do some follow ups but I keep dozing off and in this kind of situation I am in the risk of being fired, so I must buck up drink more coffee and sleep early lol.

Still got lots of things haven done yet like my homework for wed and thurs lesson though its just one question. I have to make Friday midnight and Sat afternoon my study time, got to also do some work out to cut that tummy of mine. :)

Chinese New Year is just round the corner but it seems like I have lost the kind of feeling I use to have when I was young, the kind of anticipation for the holiday to come. NOw I just feel like its another day off for me. Or just another occassion where I can give myself that excuse to have higher budget for my clothings lol.

Ok thts about it. Got to sleep otherwise I really need at least 3 cups of coffee for a start for tomorrow. Nites!

Cheers!
-Ash-

the End of WeekEnd.

2009-01-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

Its Sunday, yes and I will be working on Sunday at Lucky Plaza. Not sad, but kinda enjoying it (some time of it.) Ya jus a sum up for What I did for my weekend.

Saturday. Windy day. lol ok Sat started very late for me, as I slept only at 5am after the late nite supper with Jie Yi and Joyce which I gain that extra inch on my BUTT not WAIST. lol. Enjoy of course but very tiring. Other than the supper the other reason that I can wake up late is also because I have lose my part time at IMM. Ya so when I wake up its already almost time for me to prepare to go for my dance lesson, had my lunch then set off.

Every week I always look forward to my dance class. I really find that it is too short lol. 1 hour is like only warm up. We did HOUSE this week, which mainly on foot works. The steps are simple but the pace is like hell. Jacky really drill us and I really like it but its damn tiring.

So to reward and Chinese New Year is near, Joyce and me went to Bugis to shop. Its really fun to be able to buy things and not really worry about money as I have set a budget tht is ok. lol. We started from Bugis street and I thought I can get some good bargins but in the end I only manage to get a shirt from Freshbox which is not what I think as cheap. Plus the clothing in Bugis street is like not so nice together with the crowd, OMG its crampy and uncomfortable to actually do shopping.

Then we decided to move on to Parco instead as it should be less crampy and its cooling. Ya indeed I bought 3 shirts from Newbie, which is COOL!!! to be exact its buy 2 get 1 free. lol. finally end my shopping spree at Giodarno, for my pants. It is hard for me to get a pants this year as my butt has grow out of proportion to my waist. But still with my determination and queued to the fitting room twice, I managed to get 3 pants. YEAH!!! Great Job.

That FINALLY concluded my Sat adventure. Sunday, I mean today not much of the thing other than the usual working at Lucky Plaza and face customer under the kind of polluted air condition, with taxi exhuast keep producing carbon monoxide at the back of the kiosk plus people smoking beside the kiosk. I think I am at a risk of getting lung cancer.

Ok its very late, and I got to work again tomorrow. But It should be a fun week to look forward to as I might have a KtV session. OH! I cant make it, its on a Thursday, got to tell Cynthia that I got my nightmare lesson. PAPER 4 - Cost Accounting on Thurs. Ironically, I still look forward to the lesson so as my lesson on Wed for paper 3. I must passit with flying colours.

Thats it for today, to be continue tomorrow. Nites.

Cheers!
-Ash-

FRiday.

2009-01-10T03:14:00.002+08:00

Thank god its friday. lol. YES! its weekend. Finally manage to sort of get all my things organise and clearing them slowly while trying to maintain my procedure of my work flow. Met up with Joyce and Jie yi tonight, but its really a long wait for joyce to knock off. No chioce but to just loiter around the store and chit chat.

Finally made it to the time Joyce knock off. We actually planned to go and sing K at Cineleisure and I was very very very hungry as I haven eaten anything for my dinner, so immediately thought of Xing Wang lol. But in the end, we did not sing cos the time to the closing time is like 4 hrs only and we haven eat yet, so we drop the idea. Plus no movie that we like to watch so also forgo that idea. So we stick to just eating. :D

NOw damn tired, still looking forward to the dance lesson tomorrow. :) ok got to sleep otherwise will be damn damn tired as I got lots of things need to do. Nites!

Cheers!
-Ash-

Paper 4: Cost Accounting = Nightmare.

2009-01-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day for my paper 4. Cost Accounting. The most worried and difficult paper of all. Even Auditing not that hard. :( The lecture is ok, not as boring as I expected really think the teaching method is far more better than the first time I learned Costing from my ITE teacher, Mr Lim omg really do not understand what he is teaching. lol. Ok that sounds like blame pushing.

However, I really think I can make it if I follow the progress of the lecture and do revision. Study aside, now regarding my work. A bad news have been so call 'annouced' to my group of colleague during lunch. RETRENCHMENT! the taboo word in the world now. Ya my company is going to move towards that stage. The time is really not right and I really feel scared, as my part time job also not in a good situation. Really cant imagine what is going to happen to me if I lose all my jobs. I already have problem trying to get pass every month, plus plus I just started my CAT. Really hope I will not be the next one, at the same time I should really look for other job just in case.

ok got to sleep and that is all for today. May the GOD you believe in bless you.

Cheers!
-Ash-

First Day of School.

2009-01-08T00:12:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of school for CAT paper 3. I was almost late, all because of the crowd at city hall mrt station. OMG! I have to wait for 2 trains before I can actually barely squeeze onto the 4th one. It really feels good to be in school again, really want to make it to the best. My lecturer she says that whoever in Kaplan who can make it to the top 3 in the exam in the national level, Kaplan is giving free scholarship to the student. So I must work hard for FREE PAPER. lol.

Its been 2 years since I touched Accounting. Almost forgot about Double entries and Assets all those term. Even shocking for me is som of the terms, I have learned 2 years ago have change. Ie: Balance Sheet = Statement of Financial Position. Accounting is not like once you have graduate fromt he course thats the end. We have to keep on upgrade and update ourselves on the new laws and standards, as they will have it revise from time to time.

REally feel motivated now. I must keep this up. Got to do lots of revision during Saturday, as I have planned to do revision to make sure I understand the chapter that have been taught tht week. :)

Hao ba got to sleep. Tomorrow will be my Paper 4 lesson. Woot Woot. lol.

Cheers!
-Ash-

Day before Sch starts.

2009-01-06T23:11:00.002+08:00

Omg. Time really fly fast, as I was thinking about what to study last year this time, tomorrow is the start of my academic journey towards being a CAT. Nervous? Definately, its like 2 years haven't been in a school environment. Furthermore, it will be more stressful for me too, as I have to cope with my work and studies.

All this worry is meaningless at this point of time, I just have to face it and slove it. Having organinsing part of my undone work, I have to give myself a deadline on completing my undone jobe by the end of this week. Meaning, OT for me on friday, as I will be having my night class on Wednesday and Thursday.

Thinking of all this work and stress I going to get it. I must start to take care of my body especially my face and body mass. lol. I am growing fat, and I really have to accept the fact when my pants is going to burst anytime soon if I do not get a bigger one plus friend's mom say I changed lot as in I AM FAT. AH~ thts why since Saturday I will be free during the morning, I will need to have a work out plan and have to utilise the free time fully. I WANT TO BE HEALTHY AND FIT.

Oh come to think of it, I have not yet put up my photos. But I manage to clear most of my work today and manage to wake up at least 10 mins earlier. I must keep it up and must not give up.

ok got to go and do my facial regime. lol. So chaos.

Cheers!
-Ash-

BIRTHDAY !!! ( the late post)

2008-12-30T23:10:00.003+08:00

I am 22 already. Thats fast, I feel like I have jus celebrated my 21 birthday yesterday. Ok the aging process starts now. I do not feel extremely happy today, as I was stressed out with my work in the office. Ya my job does have that effect to affect me. Mentally!!!. Cant even have a peaceful leave.

I can say I do have fault in this outcome, where my work keep pestering me. Poor time management, poor organising skill, lack of discipline and lack of communicating ability. But inside me, I keep feeling that they have some fault too but why is the whole picture keep showing only I am at fault. Very frustrated. Trying hard to get things right but everytime things just won't want to be right.

This is how I feel on my birthday. Sad. But I will not be affected by this, as problem will still be there until I do something about it. Got to face the music and better have more self discipline.

Nervous because I am going to start my CAT course next week, when I am not done yet with my registration. The funding really takes a long time to be done. Anyway other than the registration I am also worried bout my learning ability as I skip the first 2 paper as it is just a basic, when I have forgot how to go about with doing data entry.

**The above posting is suppose to be posted up on my BIrthday lol. But did not manage to post it. SO it looks half complete. **

Ok for my post today. it is my first post for 2009. HAPPY NEW YEAR. I do hope it is a really happy one but it does not feel right for me now as a start. Have been fired for one of my part time job, due to my irresponsible action. yes orh bi good. My attitude towards my part time is bad and I should really wake up before it affect my full time job.

Next STUDIES. YEAH!!! my funding is approved today, I was delighted to receive the phone call from Kaplan Financial. SO I went down to make my payment. Wednesday will be my first day of lesson and I really need to be ready for it. Its been a long time since I touched on Accounting.

So now since my SAT is free for the morning. I should really make use of my safra member to go for a swim. My BUTT is getting bigger, it has formed its own website which is so big. I MUST TONED UP. ALso for my IPPT, I need to do preparation for it too. hoping to maintain at silver if cant just pass also good better than never attempt.

Think for this year I should make some changes in my life. For this month I should start with DISCIPLINE which I really lack and caused me to performe badly in my work. So I will dsicipline myself to make a post everyday and by this week get my photo all done up.

Ok got to sleep now. SO Happy New Year again. Good luck to me and to all of my FRIENDS out there. (^.^)

Cheers!
-Ash-

Moody. Restless. Listless.

2008-11-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

Its Tuesday, ya this marks the end of my 2 days mc. Have been sleeping and resting but ITS NOT ENOUGH, and thinking of the work load I will be handling when I am back to work, really demoralise me more.

Reason for MC: eye infection. OK ! its not what everyone is thinking ' peep at ppl ', its genuine eye infection. Don't think it will recover fast but hope that can recover asap. I really think that my company HR never update the available clinic round my house. The one which is suppose to be near my house, has already closed down for good, make me have to go down to the polyclinic and spent over $10 for my consultation.

DEcember I will be performing in our school Bi annual performance. I actually want to opt out of the performance because we got to buy our own costume which I find it so ex. But still went to shop for it today, bought the top for now. I AM OVER BUDGETED LE !!!

Anyway for now got to prepare to register for my CAT and meet up with GINA to celebrate her birthday, which is next week. OH YA !!! my father birthday is this week got to find something for him. (^.^)

OK ... got to go to bed and prepare for battle tomorrow. OMG!!! must jia you and fight for the future I wanted.

Tired and brain stopping Friday.

2008-11-07T23:40:00.002+08:00

Had a tired Friday today, have not been at my tip top condition for work. I have been watching taiwan drama at nite, cos I am having problem sleeping at nite. No matter how hard I work in the day once come to nite my brain jus feel alert. BUT !!! it jus don wan to work and plan lol ... ok that is my problem not being discipline enough.

I must get my life on track and be focus i cannot go on living my life like this. Really feel pathetic at times, and feel tired too to keep telling myself to move on.

ok I going to sleep tomorrow will be another of work. JIA YOU ASHLEY !!! JIA YOU my FRENS !!!

Cheers!
-Ash-

New Updates !!!

2008-11-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

Finally back again, after seeing my sistas blog makes me want to say something. Have been really busy and tired most of all LAZY ... yes lazy is a very vicious virus which makes a brain slowly stop functioning and makes you forget and don't care about things. I am diagnose with LAZINESS ...

Having stepping into the working world for like around 4 months already, really feel the tiredness and the pressure of living and surviving in this urban jungle. Everyday wake up and new challenges keep coming to you like emails which keeps flowing into your inbox with all the problems and things you need to accomplish for the day. Really tired but I have to keep moving forward, solve all the problem and hope for a better tomorrow. I believe in a chinese saying: '先苦后甜',I suffer now but i will enjoy the fruits of success in the later part.

Currently I am working 3 jobs and attending Hip Hop lesson. Heres my schedule for the week:

Monday: 8.30 to 6 (admin job)
Tuesday: 8.30 to 6 (admin job) -> 7 to 11 (8 days stand outside lucky plaza)
Wednesday: same as Monday
Thursday: same as Tuesday
Friday: same as Mon and Wed
Sat: 10 to 2 (imm magazing stand) 5 to 6 ( hip hop lesson)
Sun: 10 to 6 (lucky plaza)

Yes currently that is how packed my week is, to think that I am going to start my CAT ( certified accounting technician) which the first 3 paper I taking will occupy my Mon to Fri nite till 9.45 pm.

I now can really feel how Gina, Wan Ting, Joyce, Jie Yi first started out work after graduate. They have already reached the half way point but I am just starting the journey. See NS is really waste of my time. lol .... nvm that. But ya I can feel the stress and pressure they have faced when they first start out, with pathetic pay and still uncertain about the working world.

Think thats how my laziness get worsed. All and all its still up to me to change my lifestyle. I really need to buck up and stop waste time on things which can never happen or not even helpful for my future. Sometimes I really hate myself for not able to be successful or be street smart.

Guess that will be my overall feelings and thoughts since I started work. Now to what are some of the main event in October: BIRTHDAYS !!!! OMG its really a month of birthdays, I have my sister's birthday, Wan ting birthday, Jie yi birthday and other frens ...

REally enjoy the gathering where we celebrates Wan ting birthday, reall really really fun, furthermore Edward is there with us too. it is really hard to get him out sometimes but no matter what it is still Wan tings birthday :) ..

For my Sister's birthday was rather normal BUT the cake really very nice, I finished half of the cake myself. of course not on the spot, I seperate it to 2 days. lol .... Really happy for her too still in 20 not yet 21 ... omg I am old already, my days being a 21 is ending soon.

For a conclusion: GINA don be too upset le, really feel sad to know you are so frustrated with problems. Always remember you still have us, we will lend you our hears and no worries I will wash it clean before I lend it to you.

WAN TING really happy and also xin wei to see that you are still as loving with Da tou your dearie, and very sorry to have neglected you and Gina and really really sorry to send you your birthday msg, have been guilty about it. Will try my best to meet up with you Gina and Edward. Congrates to you teacher, must Jia you with your dip I also will Jia you with my CAT and be an successful accountant.

JOYCE happy to see your career is picking up and bonus all coming. Your hard work is paying off and you are seeing the rainbow after the rain. Jia you Jia you.

Ok ba I really need to sleep cos I having dark circles already and my health is not that good already think I am exhuasted but its alrite I still can take it. Really need to work harder so by the age of 30 an old man I have a career which is stable also I am financially stable. Must work hard ...

Nites my fren.

Cheers
-Ash-

Mid-Autum Sunday ....

2008-09-14T23:57:00.002+08:00

Today start off quite ok thought of going to swim but too late already as I am going to meet up with my sistas, GINA and WAN TING.

We met up at Bugis at 2.30 pm supposedly, but I am late. OK you guys will start saying 'as usual' but I am trying hard to change my this habit. SOrry. Shopping and eating is always a must for our outing. Wan ting managed to buy a BAG which she kept on consider before she actually bought it, because she still need to budget for her plan. As for GIna she managed to get a pair of new shoes. ME ! nothing, but I am going to buy one a NIKE bag this week, as I still got voucher from my birthday also given by gina and wan ting. :)

The most exciting part of our outing is PHOTO TAKING. Really had lots of fun taking qurky photo of ourselves, thanks to Gina's camera. Not just that, we also took NeoPrints, its has been a long time since we did that, having lots of fun posing and designing our pictures.

Overall, WE ARE HAPPY TO THE MAX!!! YEAH!!! here I like to wish Ting and Kai HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY this week on wednesday. Happy to see that ting manage to find a great guy who loves her and she loves him very much, they have been through so many obstacle, and finally coming to their 3rd year in this journey. May both of you be as lovy as ever.

Will update the photos of us tomorrow. Good nites!!

Cheers,
-Ash-

The Black Friday.

2008-09-13T01:18:00.003+08:00

Thing should be going smooth today, which I hope but no. Things did not go the way I wanted. Mistakes at work, and the feeling of sadness keeps overwhelm me.

Today after my work I met up with Joyce thought of watching movie today, but in the end because there is not time slot which we feel comfortable with, so we just go and have dinner. REally admire Joyce ability and envy too, to be able to be successful and regconise at her work. Being through so many problems and obstacle, she still comes out strong.

Looking back at me, I really find that I am useless in ways or my lack of ability to strive for better life for myself and family. Feeling frustrated and sad, but I always keep telling myself that I need to be strong and move on, but it is always easy said then done.

I really hate my life now, but I do not want to lose like this. It is really hard to live on, I want to live more of my life. Think I taking things too hard or maybe not, I maybe taking it too lightly.

I must work harder, keep looking forward to a better tomorrow and make it right.

Cheers,
-Ash-

Tired day ...

2008-09-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

Feel so tired today, guess today will be a short update. Work is as usual but with some fulfilment, I actually am involve in the discussion with my supervisor, finance manager and operation vice president. Really feel like a family though as they do not treat me like a new comer instead they do listen to me and what I had to contribute. Thats for work.

ok think I will have to continue again tomorrow. My eyes are shutting down. Hope to see my fren tag me at my tag box. Its always a encouraging thing and heart warming to see encouragement from you guys. Thanks a million.

Cheers.
-Ash-

Tuesday ... Another day ...

2008-09-09T00:14:00.009+08:00

Ok tuesday is coming to an end, so what's next for wednesday? ... actually it will not be much for me, just a normal day to work and then knock off at 6 pm, going to have a run after work then ANIME at 11 pm ... YEAH!!!

Yes for my tuesday, hmm where should I start? from the journey to work? lol ... na will be too bored but I am not so happy with not able to get my hand on one of the TODAY newspaper, because all have been given out when I reached today. So I guess I am late today ... no worries I am not late for work always reach before 8.30 am. :)

WOrk is still as usual but Office Politics is still fresh everyday lol ... but I do not really remember much of it also cause I have poor memory so I am selective on what I like to remember lol low disk space too bad cant upgrade it. Lunch is the best part of my working day, able to have it with my frens from my department and enjoy discussing on current affairs to holidays venue ... omg really love to go to Bintan or go on a Cruise ... lol ... so anyone interested think we can planned it out from now.

Oh ya, have been reading a book ' 10 Steps to Healthy Easting'. Its a book I really like to reccomend you, my friend to read it. The book explained the need for healthy eating then helps you to plan it out, to make the step out to eat healthy. Also inside they included recepies and ways to keep ourselves healthy by exercise. Its a very comprehensive book for beginners like me, who knows nothing about healthy eating. SO MAKE THE FIRST STEP !!! by the way, I borrow this book from the library, so you do not have to actually buy it .... JUST BORROW IT.

Yes more photos which I promise lol .... lets make it part one for tonite, for more you can always find it in my friendster unless I have reached its limit hahahaha.....

Do hope you guys find these pics nice. I may not be able to capture as it is supppose to, so why not when you walk in an open area just have yr head tilt up, you might find something interesting or fascinating.... keep your head up look up into the sky .. feel the wind and feel the freedom ...

ok time to sleep, my dark circles are getting darker and eye bags getting bigger lol ... so rest well my frens and also look forward to a new day tomorrow things will be better ...

Cheers!

-Ash-

Monday Blues ..

2008-09-08T22:53:00.005+08:00

Feeling sort of normal today, but feel happy to bring my mom to the mrt station on my bicycle. Really like to see her safe and happy, also my dad who is going to retire in another 10 years time. They motivated me to work harder and really want to be a better person, to be able to provide them with a comfortable life. Think that is what everyone wanted to give their parent.

Talk about work, the pace is getting slower but still challenging, I have lots to learn in this line. Oh ya ... I got my letter to go for the employment check-ups, YEAH!!! thts means I going to be confirmed. My first permanent job, really excited about it. lol ... oh ya here are some gifts from my colleague:

From Shermaine, bought it in Thailand...

From Zeny (Product manager), who gave me when she came back from her hometown, Phillipines..

Yesh, these are the 2 gifts I got so far in my company, lol .... one is at my desk the other half in my stomach for safe keeping. hahaha ...

Ya also I got my Staff ID so happy, have the sense of belonging, thought it is jus the same as the camp pass I use to have but the feeling is totally different ... DIFFERENT ... lol .. let you guys take a look --->

Ugly right? lol ... anyway guess I will jus end it here today ...

All the best to my dearest .... Cheers!

-Ash-

Long waited updates ...

2008-09-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

Hi my fren thnx for the wait and the concern. Have been busy and lazy lol, because of my work has been quite taxing for me as its the start of it. Going to the reach my 3rd month of my work ... YEAH!!! that means I going to get my confirmation, Hopefully ... :)

Have been depress and also been happy. Think that is life. Depress bout my life bout myself, maybe more of a regret again and the feeling of hate towards myself. I really think that it is wasting my time to be bothered by these problems. Tried to pull myself together, but yet lack of the discipline and determination.

I have barely made it through work and must really thanks to the support of my colleague especially Cynthia Frank's (NS Buddy) girlfriend, Chantel, Shalyn (Supervisor). Never forget my buddies ... from Sec sch ---> ITE ---> McD ---> NS, really had fun meeting up with all of them, knowing with each meeting we are doing well and encouraging each others to be better.

Have thought of a few changes I wanted to make to my life which I should have done it 3 months ago:

- To exercise
- To make time for Family and Frens
- To save more spend less
- To be more organised and systematic

and Ya da ya da ya da ...

lol ... see thts a vague kind of planning I did and till now it is still this way. :) Really hope to have someone to actually push me, remind me, drill me. BUt it still come back to my philosphy (sorry if I spell it wrong, trying to have good english for my blog) : NEVER RELY ON OTHERS, BUT TO COUNT ON YOURSELF. I know I do have my sistas and buddies to help me, but I just cannot always rely on them for my own problems and mistakes. They deserves better like my family.

Ok will have to continue tomorrow, with Pictures !!! yeah !!! took quite a few but more on the SKies ... So free and calm ....

So Good nites my family and frens. :)

Cheers,
-Ash-

Reflections....

2008-06-30T23:10:00.004+08:00

Its another day at work, busy day and a challenging one because its month end and we got to get all the orders to be bill ... so I actually worked OT today though its only my 3rd week at work lol ... really wan to do my best in my job and be responsible also not to be a burden to my team of fabulous and experience ladies lol ... If you did not know, currently my department I am the only guy hahaha ... but ths only up till today tomorrow there will be a new guy coming in to join our family ...

I must thanks my supervisor for giving me the chance to really exhibit what I am capable of and try things which needed me myself to challenge my limits. Ya before I forgot I wan to congrates to Efah lol getting married soon hope that you will have a happy marriage and give birth to lots of cuties :) ...

Sometimes I really want to work myself out till I do not feel emptiness and fill myself with fulfillment, as I got too many regrets. People don't believe that there are others who really hate guys like me, ya sometimes I also hate myself, not being sincere and undecisive in decision or even childish to not think before I act, most importantly I guess they also hate me for other things which I think they know themselves well ... everyone has their dark secret so do I, to hide a secret really takes lots of courage and endurance also to be able to overcome their fear.

Saw some of my friends (maybe they will feel disgusted by that way I address them as) profile and blogs, it does makes me sad and also makes me want to live strong. Sad, as in a way I really feel hurt in a way where I really do things which makes people wants to remind themselves to beware of people like me, I am not a role model but a warning to others. They never say my name because people nowadays do not criticse each other in their face. I rather they do that then to let me admit it myself but no choice its me then its me. Whats done cant be rewind and I will not make the same mistake twice ( which they will say good for you then) ... lol ... Life is so unpredictable really ...

Strong, is actually to show them that I can achieve something too though with the mistakes or flaws I had. Really want to become SOMEBODY but yet I am too weak and coward to do so at the start, but not NOw ... There are people who hates me but there are Buddies and Sistas who really care for me and supporting me all the way, of course I won forget my family who are my silence heros, giving me the love and cares in an invisible way, it will be too mushy for them to show it too thats how old fashion thinking of me and my family.

WAN TING, GINA, EDWARD, TAT BOON, MIAO JUN, FELIX, JOYCE, JIE YI, JACK, FRANK, WILSON, CHONG MING, LENNON, KIEN SENG, SONG JUN, YEW KWANG, GINA (MAC), JASMINE, ALVIN, DICKSON, JIA RONG, SIDNEY, DE MING AND ON And oN aND on ... to think I am still able to list out this lenght of list of friends I had and still counting, I can consider myself FORTUNATE AND HONOURED to have them be with me through stages of my life. THANKZ A MILLION ...

A BIG HUG to my sister VANESSA, my MOM, my DAD and my UNCLE ... really thanks them alot alot alot alot and infinity, I cant repay them what they have done for me in this life time ...

ya back to yesterday, I really scare to see Wan Ting to be angry with me ... lol ... thanks to my hand so slow in typing and thanks to my brain think too fast ... She have been through too much these few days or I should say for the past year. Have been busy with her studies and work and also relationship, what makes me feel heart pain is she keeps saying she is not a good enough friend for us. I really think she hav done alot and is giving herself too much pressure ... GAL U R AT YR BEST LE !!!! you are great now handling yr work studies relationship and friendship jus nice don feel that you are alone ....

then Gina leh ... lol our YOU YU SHU NU .... lol kidding but a gal who really need love and lots of TLC (tender loving care) also been very sad and have trouble in her work and trying to get a GUY omg guys out there please show some action .... lol .... GAL U R ALSO THE BEST !!! though she is busy, but will always try to go with TIngs and my time to have meet ups and chit chat session ... thanks alot for your effort and also TAKE CARE OF EDWARD.

ok this blog is getting no end, last but not least .... a friend of mine who have been also supporting me and giving lots of lobang, JOYCE. THink I cant find someone who is more strong than her le, like I always tell her " The only person who can defeat you is only Yourself", this is not just an encouraging quote but its a real life kind of description of Joyce. Through the hard times she went through, makes her stronger and stronger at each stages of her life. Joyce you are not alone must remember that too ... cos you got a cute friend like ME and also a handsome friend like JACK and a pretty friend like JIe YI ....lol ...

ok guys thats marks the end of my blog today... To Be Continue ~

Cheers~
~Ash~

2008-06-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

Finally I had beaten the LAZY MONSTER ... lol ... ok an overview of the pass 2 weeks:

1: Busy with work, and happy doing it with good colleague and good bosses, and I will be oficially taking over Efah on Tues. Have been learning and observing her work and now i got to come up with my own management plan on the job like tracking my orders, delivery and trying to make it to something which easily let people know what to do if I am not around.

2: Have not been able to meet any friends cos too tired and busy lol ... excuses rite but I am going to do so liao ... really miss my sistas and fren lol .... wan ting, gina, edward, tat boon, miao jun, felix, jie yi, jack, joyce ... ya ya also some of my platoon mate ...

3: After thinking of meeting my frens, I also found myself a part time job at CEDELE cafe lol ... next week then start work ... my next plan will be make lots of money in this half a year ... need to study hard when jan start.

4: Took some pictures jus outside my workplace which is an open field nice sky view ...

Thts bout it for my update of myself ... lol ... hopefully this week will be my best one ...I need to wake up soon and learn to see myself and know what I really want and who I really am. Just have the feeling that I am jus acting and not being myself people think I mght be good but thats only my COVER but inside of me is highly infected I really think that I am not a good person at all ....

No matter what I will still be positive and not wanting to waste my life after surviving for 21 years... I will be strong and I will be successful ... no matter what ... will have to try to keep in touch with my fren and communicate more with my family ... and finally to really improve myself ... JIA YOU JIA YOU ...

Cheers

Ash

First Day of WORK !!! & updates on other days ...

2008-06-16T22:47:00.005+08:00

Today is my first day @ work in ECS Computers (Aisa) Pte Ltd, as Sales Support Executive. Currently under studying with my colleauge Shiao Hoon, she is in the company for bout a year or 2 and very efficient in completing her work. Soon i will be posted to other team to SUPPORT them lol ... thats my job !!!

ok back to last few days, haven been doing my updating because I am really very lazy... lol .... so lets start with:

WeDnesDaY, 11 june 2008

morning did nothing much but in the evening met up with GINA, WAN TING and EDWARD. REally had a great night, went to Yoshinoya for dinner then to NYDC for some drink and cakes ... here they are ...

did not really remember what are the name sof the drinks and cakes BUT I can say they taste GREAT ... also while chilling out at NYDC we actually talked about how wan ting's and gina's wedding will be like, thinking of what kind of wedding dress and the ceremony ALSO some other weird kind of setting for the wedding, changing the way of entering the hall, instead of the couple walking in together throught the middle of the hall, each take a side and walk along the sides and then merge again at the end .... lol ....

also Ting say that her darling only want to have 2 tables for their weddings, we are like very shocked and amuse lol ... imagine the whole hall with only 2 tables ... HAHAHAHAHA ... omg really damn funny. Gina and I already promise Tings that we will be her MC on her wedding day lol ...

OK now you may think why I haven been talking bout Edward because I don't wan to remember about it omg can u imagine? BOTH OF US WORE THE SAME COLOUR SAME BRAND SHIRT ... GREEN !!!!! so GAY !!! lol ... REally scare people will think that we are a couple ... Overall the whole night is fun, finally we could hav time like this to enjoy ....

ThUrsDay, 12 june 2008

went for my interview at ECS which is the job I am doing now ... Thankz to CYNTHIA and FRANK this couple really helped me alot, cythia was the girl who intro me into this company. I was interviewed by Kwang Ying, HR executive, my Head of Dept Mr Terence Kang (ps: which today then i found out his name) omg he better don't bump into my blog and last but not least my Supervisor Shalyn Chia, who is on leave today so haven really know exactly what I will be doing ...

Ya the interview went quite smoothly, I was nervous because its my first formal interview and was interviewed by 3 person quite stress but fortunately and gratefuly I was granted this job on that late evening before they knock off ... SO happy finally i got a job le ....

sAtuRdAy, 14 june 2008

no specific plan for that day but Frank rang me up to meet because Cynthia is having a stall in the Youth Park which was a flea market organised by LIME.She sells female accessories, so Frank does not want to be at the store lol ... then finally I came to his rescue from boredom we went to walk around in Orchard then we saw Nicholas from our bn who is doing a event on facial products so went in to get some freebies lol ...

The day has not ended here, because I am went to woodland to visit my parent's fren or should I say my beloved Aunty Linda, Uncle Brendon, Marc and Andrea who jus came back to settle down in Singapore from Melborne. but before I carry on to their house, I go over to Courts to see how Dickson is doing well as a promoter very happy to see that he have a job and ok la I should say doing quite well. Also he does look smart over there ... lol .... oh so to my beloved family house we had dinner and went to hav some drink at their house until late lol .... really long time never catch up with them and really miss them a lot ...

SunDAY, 15 june 2008

Its FATHER'S DAY ... ya my sister and I bought a POLO T for my father and wanted him to wear it to the dinner lol .... ya he did ... before the dinner that day i went to work @ MAGAZING in Plaza Singapura, tiring that day because the day before I did not have enough sleep, managed to go through the working hour ...And really enjoyed the dinner lol ... PAPA I LOVE YOU !!! lol ... MUMMY I LOVE YOU TOO !!! ... :)

Phew ~ DONE !!! finally updated all the entries lol ... finally some more pics of me and Gina ...

ok cheers to all !!! and JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU ... God working day tomorrow ...

A Boring Tues !!!

2008-06-13T01:44:00.010+08:00

SOrry trying hard to make up for the pass few days of entries. lol ... After settling some matters on Tues I went on to meet Joyce at Clifford Centre. We actually walk from Raffles Place to Bugis lol ... think Joyce's leg are going to break cos she is on heels.... anway i think I shall let the pictures do the talking ...

ok the end lol ... see how bored I am ... still on the journey of life ... walking on and on ...

cont' Demsey Gathering

2008-06-12T21:22:00.008+08:00

Yesh as I promised to post the little pictures I took during our gathering at Demsey.

~*nice interior design*~

~*look at the fish ... yummy*~

~my first Ben and Jerry ice cream~

Last by not least, SOme Pics Of uS !!! lol ...

The Gathering yesterday ...

2008-06-08T12:03:00.002+08:00

Feel very sleepy yesterday after a whole day of outing, OMG old liao !!! lol .... so now then update my blog ...

Ok got a class gathering yesterday at JUMBO @ DEMSEY with our ex-mathematics teacher in MAnjusri, Mrs Kong. the place is classy and looks expensive BUT no worries because it is a treat from mrs kong as her father owns a share I think it is lah ... lol nvm bout that, WhaT iS Most iMportant is the FOOD ... We had CHILI CRAB, FRIED RICE, MEE GORENG, BABY SQUID, FRIED FROG LEG, YOU TIAO, GRILLED FISH and BACON W/FISH CAKE LIKE FILLINGS ... thats a feast really enjoyed it, also having lots of fun catching up with one another looking back into our secondary school life remembering those characters good and bad. We still have not end the fun in demsey we move on to the Ben & Jerrys to have ice-cream, which is my first time ... It is HEAVEN lol ...

I ended my day of outing at orchard with the rest. Then i go on to the Magazing at PLAZA SINGAPURA, to see how to do the closing because I am going to be left alone to do it so got to get the hang of it.

Overall for yesterday, I did not feel as happy as I should or expected to be after ORD, instead feeling a little nervous and stress? lol ... maybe because I am out in the reality world need to get a job quickly otherwise I will become broke. Really got to buck up and be the BEST ... Thats the end of this post, as for the photo yet to get it from miao jun so will update it on another post ...

Cheers !!!

ORD aka OFFICIAL RELEASE DATE ... LOL

2008-06-06T16:56:00.001+08:00

Finally the long waited day had come, also finally I found the problem with my blog on WHy I cant seem to see my post. lol ... ok back to my fabulous ORD, a very messy and tiring one i suppose with all the cleaning and packing going on and on for the whole week. The ORD function on last fri is also an unforgettable one with BEER LADIES, DANCE GURLS and most importantly DRAG SHOW... lol ... a very funny one but to most of my fellow buddies they find it scary hahahaha... to me i really find it very funny and open-minded, wanted to find where they usually perform and go and see their performance.

Ok now for my plan after ORD, quite same like most of the people, looking for jobs then going on to study CAT in kaplan and follow on to ACCA. Teachers really did not encourage me to attempt it but I really think I should give it a shot. Aiming to become a PUBLIC ACCOUNTANT then I can have my own home office not needing to work for people.

Last but not least, thanks for my frens bros and sis viewing my first post which is on my ORD day lol ... as you can see the blog is still under construction but will carry on with my update daily ( will try my best) lol ... hehehe... so for any updates of me do come to my blog to take a look ...

Cheers !!!